Monthly Archives: January 2011

A Big Decision

January 30th 2011 I’ve had a few days to take in this new situation and I’m thinking more clearly about it now. As I said I was very disappointed in the lack of information from the second scan. The difficulty … Continue reading

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Mistletoe Man

Sorry for the delay in writing this. Not sure if I can type it. An unpleasant little side-effect is losing the skin on the tips of my fingers and thumbs, worse on my right hand because of friction, apparently. It … Continue reading

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Anti-climax

We are waiting to see Onco Man. Giving blood, getting weighed, “You’ve put on five pounds,” says the research nurse, Morag, approvingly. I approve too. Not sure about Jane, she approves of skinny. Morag is doing a crystal healing course and … Continue reading

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Waiting and Drumming of Fingers

Tuesday January 25th 2011 The sixty-fourth day since starting chemo. No pills today! HOORAY! Waiting somewhat on tenterhooks for tomorrow when we get the results. Weird thing is the results are already known, loads of people (at least twenty apparently … Continue reading

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The Second Scan

Sunday 22nd January 2011 Had the CT scan Friday afternoon. This is a big deal. After almost nine weeks of chemo, months of herbal remedies, therapy, healing etc etc, I get to see if anything made a difference! The reality … Continue reading

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Cancer and Consciousness

Saturday January 22nd. Below are the various stages or states that I visit and a way of bringing consciousness to them. I hope this may be of help to others. (With acknowledgement to the stages of grief identified by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross … Continue reading

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PS to the above

January 20th 2011 I just realised that, “Make me an instrument of thy peace,” is a prayer! I prayed! How amazing. Yet, was it me? Who prayed? It felt like a voice coming through me, not from me. It was … Continue reading

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“Make me an instrument of thy peace.”

January 20th 2011 “Make me an instrument …………..” I couldn’t speak the rest of the sentence but it was there in my mind, really strongly. “…………… of thy peace.” I couldn’t speak because I was crying, deep sobs were racking … Continue reading

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Confusion Reigns as I Attempt to Converse with Myself

Saturday 15th January After I realised I needed to apologise to my stomach, and did so, I felt good about that. The next day it became obvious that there was more apologising to be done. The part of me that … Continue reading

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Sweet Fool

“Sweet Fool.” These words arose in me. I heard these words in me, Addressing me with such gentleness, Such simple, deep care That I didn’t mind being called a fool. Where did such love come from? ……………… I don’t know. … Continue reading

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